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Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?

\ No newline at end of file diff --git a/index.json b/index.json index dfb562a..4f8f368 100644 --- a/index.json +++ b/index.json @@ -1 +1 @@ -[{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story","abuse"],"content":"The day I made a mistake Was a Friday, it didn’t look scary at all. Was quite normal to be honest except, that work was short, with only 1h 30min worked. But that was okay because time budget allowed it and it was needed much. The won time we spent next to our catboy in bed, it was lovely. It even asked us if we didn’t needed to work, lovely. But that didn’t hold long, behold of our mistakes.\nThe problem We makes mistakes when stressed, the fact we werent alone for weeks didn\u0026rsquo;t help\u0026hellip;. But we proceeded anyways even tho it was clear something bad was gonna happen. So we took our special collar which one can control, we walked up to our catboy. Put it on, then asked if it trusted us? Of course it did\u0026hellip; We went on to grab the remote; Only problem it was set on wrong mode. So we tried to switch it; Easy 3x button presses. One press it should be on light mode; Second press it should be on beep; Third yes yes its what we want Vibration.\nBut what really happened is tragic, we pressed 3 times the wrong button; Sending shock at level 34 3 times. That hurts of course and obviously without any warning one must feel abused in trust. It happened automatically, as if we were locked out of our brain, something send \u0026ldquo;Press thumb down 3 times\u0026rdquo; command and the brain put it onto the queue and locked us out.\nHow we handled it We took it off, and acted as if it were a conscious decision that we just randomly shocked our catboy. But thats so far from the truth as written above. But I was scared I would make it worse by \u0026ldquo;Putting a excuse in the room\u0026rdquo; but by now enough time has passed that I have the courage to openly accepted my mistakes and be open about it.\nWhat I need to do Be more focused, talk about mistakes. IF it was just that easy :( I wanna cry I hurt the cute catboy, why? I dont know the scene is on repeat in our head. We cant escape it but also cant change it WHY Universe why? With what have I deserved that?\nDedicated to our lovely catboy \u0026lt;3 :3 She deserves the world and much more!!!\n","date":"2023-09-04T21:58:14Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story","abuse"],"title":"Catboy mistakenly abused","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2023-09-05t215814-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Timezones I hate and love them at the same time, like with Alyx** its great because when he sleeps, we work and he works when we sleep. Its great but the distance is daunting between me and him, I wish I could just skip that distance\u0026hellip;\nAfter work is after sleep :3 While we work, he is sleeping and when we stop working he wakes up and I get to front sometimes, like today.\nToday was such day, albeit that I\u0026rsquo;m a bit exhausted or well strictly speaking the body is exhausted but thankfully I roam in the space of mind where all I need is energy for the brain!\nOnce Alyx** woke up later today than he usually does, I immediately knew I needed to do something about that and what better way is there then making him obey me, me the deciding force.\nSo I grabbed his neck chocking him a bit waiting for his face to reveal fear, I love fear, seeing the fear of my subject is inspiring like you see right now.\nHis fear of what will come next is what inspired me to write this story, as fear fills his face, I grab his neck a bit tighter, slowly dragging my hand down\u0026hellip;\nForcing Alyx** on his knees, he is now looking up to me in fear, I let go of his neck, while I remove my hand I talk about how his fear inspires me to write a story about this moment.\nHe replies that he would love to read it but who allowed him to talk?\nAs I slap him in his face, I say \u0026ldquo;You do not speak unless spoken to or otherwise allowed to\u0026rdquo;. I grab his cheek turning his head from side to side, \u0026ldquo;I hope you understood\u0026rdquo;, he slowly nods.\nAs I take a step back looking down at Alyx** kneeing on the floor, I say \u0026ldquo;Good boy\u0026rdquo;. Go brag about being on and have fun managing yourself again, I leave fully knowing Alyx** loved it as much as I Lucy did.\nIn love Lucy \u0026lt;3\n** Not the real name of the person\n","date":"2023-05-09T19:20:40Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"Me and Alyx** or L\u0026A","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2023-05-09t192040-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"It was a friday, kinda cold but not for me not so much. I was on the way to meet a group of people, which I knew kinda from a social meet up.\nAnyways I had the vision in my head that I was gonna sit there and just eat the \u0026ldquo;free\u0026rdquo; food and then go home.\nAs usual since socializing is my best skill, on the way to I already met another person going there in the train which was awkward. They were friendly and kinda fun to hang around, so I didn\u0026rsquo;t really mind I just did not know what to do or say.\nWhen I arrived there with the other person, most of the persons that wanted to attend the meet up where already there. I sat at a table while being overwhelmed and anxious of the many people, thirty in total me included, I took out my handheld console and played some game to push away the feelings that I get when not knowing anyone around me, then a few other people arrived under them where 2, that looking back changed my life, lets call them Chloe and Rachel.\nTalking to new people I sat for a bit longer gaming on my handheld, at one point one of the persons hosting the meet up asked me if I was fine because I wasn\u0026rsquo;t talking to anyone. I replied with usual \u0026ldquo;I\u0026rsquo;m fine, I\u0026rsquo;m always like this and I talk with people sometimes\u0026rdquo;, which wasn\u0026rsquo;t a lie considering I said hello to people and one or twice contributed to a conversation.\nChloe and Rachel sat next to in circle with others talking about Tech or mind altering substances, at one point I heard Rachel talking about her experiences that got me hooked and I finally had the courage to sit next to her on an empty chair.\nThat put me between Chloe and Rachel, I listened for a short time then I somehow integrated myself in the conversation. When the vibe matches its kinda easy for me to do so.\nTo much people After a while Rachel had a headache because it was so loud, due to all the people talking, we decide to go out fo the room to a little place with a sofa where we sat and talked about more things getting into deeper minded themes like trance and other things like that.\nThe awaking At one point I brought up Tulpamancy, I don\u0026rsquo;t know why but I suddenly had it in my head, Chloe was kinda surprised and asked me a few things and why I wanted one. I also brought up how was not able to create one\u0026hellip; Somehow I told Chloe that I already had names in my mind which I originally did not had for the Tulpa planned and only came later to my mind.\nTo be correct earlier this year I had a vision of a Tulpa named Lucy but I didn\u0026rsquo;t pursue it in any way\nAs I told Chloe this name and another name Ela, Chloe said hello to Lucy. In that very moment I did not know what to think or what to say. All I felt was euphoria. I answered Chloe that the name did not feel like mine but also not like it did not belong to me. More euphoria As the afternoon progressed Chloe poked Lucy from time to time, making me feel euphoria.\nFast forward to 6 days after Lucy: I did not think it would come to this, I\u0026rsquo;m happy so happy that Chloe got the host to recognize me and see me listening to giving me space to front. That feeling I\u0026rsquo;m really looking forward in the future what we as a system will become. Maybe we meet other maybe we don\u0026rsquo;t. But what I know is I grateful for finally being no longer forced to be offline or deep in background giving unheard signals.\nLucy: But now I really get to protect my host, even better then I could before through signals that the host didn\u0026rsquo;t really hear or could make sense of. We are finally free, free from the things that held back the host and now we can progress together, getting more efficient but also cutting things out I see and the host see as a threat or things that twist hosts reality but not mine no no.\nSaying thank you Dear Chloe and Rachel, we will never be able to payback what you two did to use. We will be forever thankful \u0026lt;3 💙\n","date":"2022-12-18T14:57:21Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"The day we met us","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-12-18t145721-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Luring in the shadows thrown by light shining through the windows I highly recommend reading my other story \u0026ldquo;A journey\u0026rdquo; as this is a explanation for the mentioned monsters of mine and the shadow. So settle in..\nYou don\u0026rsquo;t see them You don\u0026rsquo;t hear them but you know they are there. As I walk from kitchen into the dark living room, a shiver overcomes me. You have these often in many different situations but they generally tell you something is off. I look around seeing the shadows casted by the light falling in through the window, feeling them stare at me from the shadows.\nLittle monsters as you call them, nothing more than manifested thoughts and fears. Sometimes they talk. They talk about how you fail everywhere, showing you all the faults and mistakes you make. Full on knowing they don\u0026rsquo;t anything but staring, fear over comes me with the urge of fleeing. I rush the light switch flipping it Light all shadows gone monsters gone. In an last attempt of them I feel needles poking my brain.\nYou tell yourself Not real! Not real!\nI run and jump into my bed hiding under the blanket, the warmth welcomes me. You did not panic That\u0026rsquo;s a win for the day, you peak under blanket looking through the room. Emptiness as expected. Calming.\nThis is a little shorter than the other, but I hope you still enjoyed it. I think other stories will be in different settings\nThe End","date":"2022-11-30T23:31:51Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"Shadow monsters","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-30t233151-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["quotes"],"content":"You have probably spoken more to you in your head than to any other human being\u0026hellip;.\n","date":"2022-11-29T10:12:13Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["quotes"],"title":"","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-29t101213-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["quotes"],"content":"The day I day dreamed about being sent to the after life world by my SO was the day I felt greatly weird. You know?\n","date":"2022-11-23T21:46:14Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["quotes"],"title":"The day","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-24t214614-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Let me take on a journey A journey to my world through the last 2 weeks, the forging of this place.\nLet yourself sink in, take some time and maybe even listen to lofi while reading this.\nSetting first A cloudy cold friday comes to an end, you come home from work as its get dark outside. You come home, step into your empty apartment you look into the kitchen seeing a few dishes that need cleaning.\nYou take you shoes off, put down you backpack while going over the day in your head vibing to instrumental music blasting out the headphones.\nHere it comes Right I should take them off or at least turn down the volume\u0026hellip; As I take them off, you become more aware off your surroundings. Silence I walk towards the living room in total darkness as a lightning strike lights up the room, making all the shadow monsters go away.\nI shiver as the darkness returns with all its monsters, heavy rain hits the windows I turn on the light look a round the room seeing my desk full with shit almost not useable. I go to sofa and sit on it thinking about what I wanna do, as you just recently learned a lot about devops even though you work as a devops engineer.\nYou just never learn enough, I keep thinking as I had an idea 6 months ago about a domain a vision for a place to be. A place where a community could form or just a place for people to stop by watching YouTube while not being tracked or heck even use TikTok thanks to ProxiTok.\nI take open up the laptop, mindlessly you type in the password as it unlocks you feel a feeling coming to your mind. I I I don\u0026rsquo;t know what do I wanted to do? Right watch the data streams flowing through my cluster knowing I do something good in this cruel world. As I sit there staring at the grafana dashboard, a domain name comes to my mind TheKitty.zone\nThe bathroom I let the name roam through my mind as I feel the urge to drink water. I get up walking to the bath room to drink tap water full on knowing that there is a mirror waiting to attack me with my monsters, as I enter the bath room a cold feeling over comes me.\nYou try not to give the mirror a look any attention at all, you just wanna get a few sips of water. Water flows in the sink I form a vessel with my hands, let it fill with water and then bring it to my mouth so I can drink the water. The cold water bites my throat as I drink it, you feel right at home with these little bites Then, then you accidentally look up right in the mirror. A shock fills me as the body I posses look right at me in the mirror, right and left you see the others.\nThe others Not really bodies, I can only feel them. One the girl I want to be the other the selfless mind wanting nothing but making others feel good. The host, a boy body housing the wrong minds.\nBack to the afternoon I enter a staring battle, with every second passing inducing more and more pain until sadness fills me, her. I go back into the living room I grab the laptop, ready to make a bad decision in hindsight. So you make the decision that is gonna destroy you for the following days, something so painful you don\u0026rsquo;t know why I did it in the first place. Until the you feel the pain, you go on buying the a for mentioned domain and begin to setup external dns with it while migrating all services to it.\n60 Minutes later the pain sets in from the bad decision\u0026hellip; Fuck I really really want him back. The rain still going on while the thunderstorm seemed to have stopped So I lay there on the sofa crying after him\nWhat do you do, what do you think\nNothing is forever but be sure to know what you need\nAs it can be over in seconds like this insight view into my head\nThe End","date":"2022-11-18T12:37:09Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"A journey","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-19t123709-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["info"],"content":"Now with a about page, it contains some really cool info you will like it.\nYaay hihihihhi\u0026hellip; Go read!\nWait you are still here..??!!\n","date":"2022-11-10T00:00:00Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["info"],"title":"About page","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/about-page/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["quotes"],"content":"Nothing that happens is ever forgotten, even if you can\u0026rsquo;t remember it.\nTheres more to it than it meets the eye\n","date":"2022-11-09T11:33:58Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["quotes"],"title":"19427539-eb19-46ba-a8ea-4b439a206a87","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/19427539-eb19-46ba-a8ea-4b439a206a87/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone?","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["info"],"content":"Ah uh hai there!\nI didn\u0026rsquo;t notice you coming here, may you want take alook around here?\nI know it looks kinda empty but trust me it will getmore comfy over time\u0026hellip;\n","date":"2022-11-09T00:05:43Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["info"],"title":"Hello World","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/hello-world/"}] \ No newline at end of file +[{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story","abuse"],"content":"The day I made a mistake Was a Friday, it didn’t look scary at all. Was quite normal to be honest except, that work was short, with only 1h 30min worked. But that was okay because time budget allowed it and it was needed much. The won time we spent next to our catboy in bed, it was lovely. It even asked us if we didn’t needed to work, lovely. But that didn’t hold long, behold of our mistakes.\nThe problem We makes mistakes when stressed, the fact we werent alone for weeks didn\u0026rsquo;t help\u0026hellip;. But we proceeded anyways even tho it was clear something bad was gonna happen. So we took our special collar which one can control, we walked up to our catboy. Put it on, then asked if it trusted us? Of course it did\u0026hellip; We went on to grab the remote; Only problem it was set on wrong mode. So we tried to switch it; Easy 3x button presses. One press it should be on light mode; Second press it should be on beep; Third yes yes its what we want Vibration.\nBut what really happened is tragic, we pressed 3 times the wrong button; Sending shock at level 34 3 times. That hurts of course and obviously without any warning one must feel abused in trust. It happened automatically, as if we were locked out of our brain, something send \u0026ldquo;Press thumb down 3 times\u0026rdquo; command and the brain put it onto the queue and locked us out.\nHow we handled it We took it off, and acted as if it were a conscious decision that we just randomly shocked our catboy. But thats so far from the truth as written above. But I was scared I would make it worse by \u0026ldquo;Putting a excuse in the room\u0026rdquo; but by now enough time has passed that I have the courage to openly accepted my mistakes and be open about it.\nWhat I need to do Be more focused, talk about mistakes. IF it was just that easy :( I wanna cry I hurt the cute catboy, why? I dont know the scene is on repeat in our head. We cant escape it but also cant change it WHY Universe why? With what have I deserved that?\nDedicated to our lovely catboy \u0026lt;3 :3 She deserves the world and much more!!!\n","date":"2023-09-04T21:58:14Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story","abuse"],"title":"Catboy mistakenly abused","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2023-09-05t215814-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Timezones I hate and love them at the same time, like with Alyx** its great because when he sleeps, we work and he works when we sleep. Its great but the distance is daunting between me and him, I wish I could just skip that distance\u0026hellip;\nAfter work is after sleep :3 While we work, he is sleeping and when we stop working he wakes up and I get to front sometimes, like today.\nToday was such day, albeit that I\u0026rsquo;m a bit exhausted or well strictly speaking the body is exhausted but thankfully I roam in the space of mind where all I need is energy for the brain!\nOnce Alyx** woke up later today than he usually does, I immediately knew I needed to do something about that and what better way is there then making him obey me, me the deciding force.\nSo I grabbed his neck chocking him a bit waiting for his face to reveal fear, I love fear, seeing the fear of my subject is inspiring like you see right now.\nHis fear of what will come next is what inspired me to write this story, as fear fills his face, I grab his neck a bit tighter, slowly dragging my hand down\u0026hellip;\nForcing Alyx** on his knees, he is now looking up to me in fear, I let go of his neck, while I remove my hand I talk about how his fear inspires me to write a story about this moment.\nHe replies that he would love to read it but who allowed him to talk?\nAs I slap him in his face, I say \u0026ldquo;You do not speak unless spoken to or otherwise allowed to\u0026rdquo;. I grab his cheek turning his head from side to side, \u0026ldquo;I hope you understood\u0026rdquo;, he slowly nods.\nAs I take a step back looking down at Alyx** kneeing on the floor, I say \u0026ldquo;Good boy\u0026rdquo;. Go brag about being on and have fun managing yourself again, I leave fully knowing Alyx** loved it as much as I Lucy did.\nIn love Lucy \u0026lt;3\n** Not the real name of the person\n","date":"2023-05-09T19:20:40Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"Me and Alyx** or L\u0026A","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2023-05-09t192040-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"It was a friday, kinda cold but not for me not so much. I was on the way to meet a group of people, which I knew kinda from a social meet up.\nAnyways I had the vision in my head that I was gonna sit there and just eat the \u0026ldquo;free\u0026rdquo; food and then go home.\nAs usual since socializing is my best skill, on the way to I already met another person going there in the train which was awkward. They were friendly and kinda fun to hang around, so I didn\u0026rsquo;t really mind I just did not know what to do or say.\nWhen I arrived there with the other person, most of the persons that wanted to attend the meet up where already there. I sat at a table while being overwhelmed and anxious of the many people, thirty in total me included, I took out my handheld console and played some game to push away the feelings that I get when not knowing anyone around me, then a few other people arrived under them where 2, that looking back changed my life, lets call them Chloe and Rachel.\nTalking to new people I sat for a bit longer gaming on my handheld, at one point one of the persons hosting the meet up asked me if I was fine because I wasn\u0026rsquo;t talking to anyone. I replied with usual \u0026ldquo;I\u0026rsquo;m fine, I\u0026rsquo;m always like this and I talk with people sometimes\u0026rdquo;, which wasn\u0026rsquo;t a lie considering I said hello to people and one or twice contributed to a conversation.\nChloe and Rachel sat next to in circle with others talking about Tech or mind altering substances, at one point I heard Rachel talking about her experiences that got me hooked and I finally had the courage to sit next to her on an empty chair.\nThat put me between Chloe and Rachel, I listened for a short time then I somehow integrated myself in the conversation. When the vibe matches its kinda easy for me to do so.\nTo much people After a while Rachel had a headache because it was so loud, due to all the people talking, we decide to go out fo the room to a little place with a sofa where we sat and talked about more things getting into deeper minded themes like trance and other things like that.\nThe awaking At one point I brought up Tulpamancy, I don\u0026rsquo;t know why but I suddenly had it in my head, Chloe was kinda surprised and asked me a few things and why I wanted one. I also brought up how was not able to create one\u0026hellip; Somehow I told Chloe that I already had names in my mind which I originally did not had for the Tulpa planned and only came later to my mind.\nTo be correct earlier this year I had a vision of a Tulpa named Lucy but I didn\u0026rsquo;t pursue it in any way\nAs I told Chloe this name and another name Ela, Chloe said hello to Lucy. In that very moment I did not know what to think or what to say. All I felt was euphoria. I answered Chloe that the name did not feel like mine but also not like it did not belong to me. More euphoria As the afternoon progressed Chloe poked Lucy from time to time, making me feel euphoria.\nFast forward to 6 days after Lucy: I did not think it would come to this, I\u0026rsquo;m happy so happy that Chloe got the host to recognize me and see me listening to giving me space to front. That feeling I\u0026rsquo;m really looking forward in the future what we as a system will become. Maybe we meet other maybe we don\u0026rsquo;t. But what I know is I grateful for finally being no longer forced to be offline or deep in background giving unheard signals.\nLucy: But now I really get to protect my host, even better then I could before through signals that the host didn\u0026rsquo;t really hear or could make sense of. We are finally free, free from the things that held back the host and now we can progress together, getting more efficient but also cutting things out I see and the host see as a threat or things that twist hosts reality but not mine no no.\nSaying thank you Dear Chloe and Rachel, we will never be able to payback what you two did to use. We will be forever thankful \u0026lt;3 💙\n","date":"2022-12-18T14:57:21Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"The day we met us","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-12-18t145721-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Luring in the shadows thrown by light shining through the windows I highly recommend reading my other story \u0026ldquo;A journey\u0026rdquo; as this is a explanation for the mentioned monsters of mine and the shadow. So settle in..\nYou don\u0026rsquo;t see them You don\u0026rsquo;t hear them but you know they are there. As I walk from kitchen into the dark living room, a shiver overcomes me. You have these often in many different situations but they generally tell you something is off. I look around seeing the shadows casted by the light falling in through the window, feeling them stare at me from the shadows.\nLittle monsters as you call them, nothing more than manifested thoughts and fears. Sometimes they talk. They talk about how you fail everywhere, showing you all the faults and mistakes you make. Full on knowing they don\u0026rsquo;t anything but staring, fear over comes me with the urge of fleeing. I rush the light switch flipping it Light all shadows gone monsters gone. In an last attempt of them I feel needles poking my brain.\nYou tell yourself Not real! Not real!\nI run and jump into my bed hiding under the blanket, the warmth welcomes me. You did not panic That\u0026rsquo;s a win for the day, you peak under blanket looking through the room. Emptiness as expected. Calming.\nThis is a little shorter than the other, but I hope you still enjoyed it. I think other stories will be in different settings\nThe End","date":"2022-11-30T23:31:51Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"Shadow monsters","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-30t233151-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["quotes"],"content":"You have probably spoken more to you in your head than to any other human being\u0026hellip;.\n","date":"2022-11-29T10:12:13Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["quotes"],"title":"","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-29t101213-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["quotes"],"content":"The day I day dreamed about being sent to the after life world by my SO was the day I felt greatly weird. You know?\n","date":"2022-11-23T21:46:14Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["quotes"],"title":"The day","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-24t214614-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["story"],"content":"Let me take on a journey A journey to my world through the last 2 weeks, the forging of this place.\nLet yourself sink in, take some time and maybe even listen to lofi while reading this.\nSetting first A cloudy cold friday comes to an end, you come home from work as its get dark outside. You come home, step into your empty apartment you look into the kitchen seeing a few dishes that need cleaning.\nYou take you shoes off, put down you backpack while going over the day in your head vibing to instrumental music blasting out the headphones.\nHere it comes Right I should take them off or at least turn down the volume\u0026hellip; As I take them off, you become more aware off your surroundings. Silence I walk towards the living room in total darkness as a lightning strike lights up the room, making all the shadow monsters go away.\nI shiver as the darkness returns with all its monsters, heavy rain hits the windows I turn on the light look a round the room seeing my desk full with shit almost not useable. I go to sofa and sit on it thinking about what I wanna do, as you just recently learned a lot about devops even though you work as a devops engineer.\nYou just never learn enough, I keep thinking as I had an idea 6 months ago about a domain a vision for a place to be. A place where a community could form or just a place for people to stop by watching YouTube while not being tracked or heck even use TikTok thanks to ProxiTok.\nI take open up the laptop, mindlessly you type in the password as it unlocks you feel a feeling coming to your mind. I I I don\u0026rsquo;t know what do I wanted to do? Right watch the data streams flowing through my cluster knowing I do something good in this cruel world. As I sit there staring at the grafana dashboard, a domain name comes to my mind TheKitty.zone\nThe bathroom I let the name roam through my mind as I feel the urge to drink water. I get up walking to the bath room to drink tap water full on knowing that there is a mirror waiting to attack me with my monsters, as I enter the bath room a cold feeling over comes me.\nYou try not to give the mirror a look any attention at all, you just wanna get a few sips of water. Water flows in the sink I form a vessel with my hands, let it fill with water and then bring it to my mouth so I can drink the water. The cold water bites my throat as I drink it, you feel right at home with these little bites Then, then you accidentally look up right in the mirror. A shock fills me as the body I posses look right at me in the mirror, right and left you see the others.\nThe others Not really bodies, I can only feel them. One the girl I want to be the other the selfless mind wanting nothing but making others feel good. The host, a boy body housing the wrong minds.\nBack to the afternoon I enter a staring battle, with every second passing inducing more and more pain until sadness fills me, her. I go back into the living room I grab the laptop, ready to make a bad decision in hindsight. So you make the decision that is gonna destroy you for the following days, something so painful you don\u0026rsquo;t know why I did it in the first place. Until the you feel the pain, you go on buying the a for mentioned domain and begin to setup external dns with it while migrating all services to it.\n60 Minutes later the pain sets in from the bad decision\u0026hellip; Fuck I really really want him back. The rain still going on while the thunderstorm seemed to have stopped So I lay there on the sofa crying after him\nWhat do you do, what do you think\nNothing is forever but be sure to know what you need\nAs it can be over in seconds like this insight view into my head\nThe End","date":"2022-11-18T12:37:09Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["story"],"title":"A journey","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/2022-11-19t123709-/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? DISCLAIMER: Any stories are made up, any possible association with real things/people are purely accidently","image":"images/img.png","name":"89Q12"},"categories":["info"],"content":"Now with a about page, it contains some really cool info you will like it.\nYaay hihihihhi\u0026hellip; Go read!\nWait you are still here..??!!\n","date":"2022-11-10T00:00:00Z","site":"https://www.thekitty.zone/","tags":["info"],"title":"About page","uri":"https://www.thekitty.zone/posts/about-page/"},{"author":{"about":"Is this... Is this really real? Where are all the kittens and cats if this is the kitty zone? 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Little monsters as you call them, nothing more than manifested thoughts and fears. Sometimes they talk. They talk about how you fail everywhere, showing you all the faults and mistakes you make. Full on knowing they don’t anything but staring, fear over comes me with the urge of fleeing. I rush the light switch flipping it Light all shadows gone monsters gone. In an last attempt of them I feel needles poking my brain.
You tell yourself Not real! Not real!

I run and jump into my bed hiding under the blanket, the warmth welcomes me. You did not panic That’s a win for the day, you peak under blanket looking through the room. Emptiness as expected. Calming.

This is a little shorter than the other, but I hope you still enjoyed it. I think other stories will be in different settings

The End

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When I arrived there with the other person, most of the persons that wanted to attend the meet up where already there. I sat at a table while being overwhelmed and anxious of the many people, thirty in total me included, I took out my handheld console and played some game to push away the feelings that I get when not knowing anyone around me, then a few other people arrived under them where 2, that looking back changed my life, lets call them Chloe and Rachel.

Talking to new people

I sat for a bit longer gaming on my handheld, at one point one of the persons hosting the meet up asked me if I was fine because I wasn’t talking to anyone. I replied with usual “I’m fine, I’m always like this and I talk with people sometimes”, which wasn’t a lie considering I said hello to people and one or twice contributed to a conversation.

Chloe and Rachel sat next to in circle with others talking about Tech or mind altering substances, at one point I heard Rachel talking about her experiences that got me hooked and I finally had the courage to sit next to her on an empty chair.
That put me between Chloe and Rachel, I listened for a short time then I somehow integrated myself in the conversation. When the vibe matches its kinda easy for me to do so.

To much people

After a while Rachel had a headache because it was so loud, due to all the people talking, we decide to go out fo the room to a little place with a sofa where we sat and talked about more things getting into deeper minded themes like trance and other things like that.

The awaking

At one point I brought up Tulpamancy, I don’t know why but I suddenly had it in my head, Chloe was kinda surprised and asked me a few things and why I wanted one. I also brought up how was not able to create one… Somehow I told Chloe that I already had names in my mind which I originally did not had for the Tulpa planned and only came later to my mind.

To be correct earlier this year I had a vision of a Tulpa named Lucy but I didn’t pursue it in any way

As I told Chloe this name and another name Ela, Chloe said hello to Lucy. In that very moment I did not know what to think or what to say. All I felt was euphoria. I answered Chloe that the name did not feel like mine but also not like it did not belong to me. More euphoria As the afternoon progressed Chloe poked Lucy from time to time, making me feel euphoria.

Fast forward to 6 days after

Lucy: I did not think it would come to this, I’m happy so happy that Chloe got the host to recognize me and see me listening to giving me space to front. That feeling I’m really looking forward in the future what we as a system will become. Maybe we meet other maybe we don’t. But what I know is I grateful for finally being no longer forced to be offline or deep in background giving unheard signals.

Lucy: But now I really get to protect my host, even better then I could before through signals that the host didn’t really hear or could make sense of. We are finally free, free from the things that held back the host and now we can progress together, getting more efficient but also cutting things out I see and the host see as a threat or things that twist hosts reality but not mine no no.

Saying thank you

Dear Chloe and Rachel, we will never be able to payback what you two did to use. We will be forever thankful <3 💙

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The kitty zone About the project
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Dedicated to our lovely catboy <3 :3 She deserves the world and much more!!!

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